I'VE CUT MY HAIR!
hahahahax
n i LOVE it!
it was my first time to cut my hair in headquarter in TA. i was with my cousin so we cut our hair together and we use the same hairstylist. his name is Roy and my cousin said he's good so i decided to use him too.
both of us, long-haired walked into the salon, and when we got out, both of us, short-haired! lolol
but my cousin's hair is shorter than mine.
however, i'm satisfied with the result! :D
AH FINALLY! it's holiday everyone!!!!
hahahaha, i'm sooo happyyyyy!!
it's lebaran holiday and it'll be from tomorrow til oct 8th!
i planned on going to Anyer for 3 days, we've booked an apartment in marbella, ocean view! ahh! thx mumm and dad!! <3
monday: school, gold's gym
tuesday: school, gold's gym: body jam and fun aero
fyi, on monday, i was exercising my legs and the next day it was aching, i could hardly walked! but when carla asked me to join her to body jam class (which is a mix of hip hop, latin and jazz) i just couldn't refuse! i LOVE dancing! and so i was too excited to care about my legs. and yeah, u know what happened, my legs were all hurt!
especially on the thighs and hips!
i was planning to join body jam, just body jam! but then carla and her mum asked me to join the next class which is Fun Aero! lemme tell you something, it's totally NOT fun! the music made my head ache, i couldn't follow the moves, it was too fast, too complicated, and unusual, and my legs were aching plus i was really tired after body jam!
the only 2 person who still could practice all the moves perfectly are carla's mum, since she's an aerobic teacher, and another woman who is very thin, yet she moved smoothly.
yeah, so the next day, which is wednesday, my legs were in agony! i found it difficult to take the stairs but since my school doesn't have any elevator, so i got no choice but to took stairs to get to the class and to canteen.
and at the end of Wednesday, i practiced choir for friday (today) for Konser Kebangsaan and at night, i went to my grandma's birthday party, went home at around 12 midnight. i was exhausted!
on thursday, i went to gold's gym again, this time my mum drove me and konak there. and she picked us up too.
we bought tickets for Laskar Pelangi which started at 7.15 pm and we got half an hour for gym. i was afraid it won't be enough since there is only one personal trainer signed for us, so i was afraid we couldn't make it to watch Laskar Pelangi.
i asked the personal trainer to get us done before 7 pm and yeah, it finished 6.45 pm. so we got half an hour to take shower and everything.
by the time i finished showering, konak was already at the farmer's market, so i joined him there. and we watched Laskar Pelangi.
ah I ADORE that film!
i LOVE it!
i thought the movie won't be as good as the book, but since Riri Riza is the producer, i'm satisfied with the movie. it pictured the book well for the short 2 hours. and the theatre was totally full! even when konak and I bought the tickets at 5 pm, it's almost all full! luckily, it was just both of us, so we still got 2 places on the F row.
so yeah, konak was kinda protesting at the beginning since he never heard of the book OR the movie,. but after he watched it, i can say he likes it :)
thx anyway for accompanying me watched Laskar Pelangi even though u hadn't known what the movie's about..
and fast forwarding to today....
i came to school at 6.45, i know, unusual!
i usually come at 7.10 but due to the choir for the concert, i should came earlier!
and we practiced the song in the aula and we got ready for the concrt.
not long after that, parents started to come and eventually, the seats are all occupied. choir students should stood to give parents seats and well, the concert started and we did the singing thing and i'm proud of it!
and after choir, we should got to a seminar by London School of Public Relation, write short report about it, and we should walked around the edu fair to get information for at least 2 stands.
and after that, i and merlyn talked alot and yeah, it was really heartfelt.
after the 2nd recess ocer, i went to dance room and we practiced dancing and everything. yeah, the typical day of mine. then i and desi went to mandarin course and in half an hour i should be off to english course.
so tomorrow is HOLIDAY!
HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE!
ahh.. my legs!
it's such an agony! my muscles are all tight and stretched. argh!
yesterday i went to gold's gym with konak and konak's mum, trying the free 1 week pass and i was handled my konak's mum personal trainer. so he told me what to do etc.
i could adjust myself easily, but then the next day, ooo myy god!
and tomorrow, konak n i will go there again!
err...about today..
i had my facial and it was painful but seriously, my face is now smooth and bright :p
after i had my facial, i went online. not long after that, a representative from gold's gym called me to ask whether I'm interested and i said my mum is on her way there to sign me in. and he called me for another 5 times and i was quite annoyed by the end of the 5th call. he phoned again and again and finally shut up after i said i'll go there tomorrow to bring my student id and he said he'll wait there. yeah right,.
yesterday...
i got my english test and somehow, i start to believe that Shawn begin to change. he gave me 9,75 for my test! well, actually my friends still got 6 and so on, but i'm quite happy with my score though! =p
and then, i also got my math test which i got 107! yay!
the total score is 112, 12 points will be saved for the next test. and now i got 7 points saved :)
kay then, so later this night, cheppy n i will watch DVD, and tomorrow i'll go to Gold's Gym again..
pffff...
good night blueberry muffin~
p.s.: i ate blueberry muffin this morning as my breakfast! ^^
oh okay...
it's been 2 days more or less since i wrote in this blog.
hmm...about today,
i woke up at 5.48, startled myself that the alarm should have rang at that ime but it didn't and instead, i find myself, looking at 1 new message from my sister in canada, saying "we got the house in Saratoga Way.. hahahaha"
i was excited, but wait, is it true? i was afraid that if i closed my eyes, the message would disappeared. well, of course, that was a stupid thought, cos it stayed there, in my phone screen and i read it once again.
i got up from my bed and washed my face, not forgetting to brush my teeth. then i went downstairs to have a nice cup of coffee and bread. these past days, i become totally addicted to coffee, and i don't know why. i drank it almost everyday after school, and i drank it in the morning.
so, so so...
i arrived at school, passing subject by subject. talking to Alain, merlyn, jay, and Tasha. then on the 2nd recess there was this oration by OSIS and we should watched the bands too. too bad, i didn't watch it til the end, cos all the students who join choir should go to the choir room for practice. it's our first practice for next week show.
after all the students gathered, i was surprised to find that it's not only our year who will do the choir, but also the 10th grade, smip 10th n 11th graders too!
so the room was quite stuffed, and that wasn't all. the science 11th graders were doing their projects. and so we practiced and we practiced. and we arranged the positions and everything. at the end of the rehearsal, we all did well i think! yay!
yeah so, this friday is holiday. what holiday? i'm not sure either, it's something about the new statue, the statue of an old man and everybody said he's a priest who built st. laurensia. yeah, well priest, thx alot! i hate missing dance, but i'm glad that i can finally relaxed agn at home.
so, yesterday,pak setyo gave us back this accountancy test and the economic test. almost the whole class got good score in econ test. i got 90! =D
buttt....when we got our accountacy test about AJP, we were all floored.
almost half of the class has to do the remedial. and due to the bad score everybody got, pak setyo, kindly gives each of us rise 1 point in the score. i originally got 57 and now it becaome 67. so i didn't have to do the remedial cos remedial are for students who got below 60. and even after our scores had been added, still, half of the class have to do remedial.
that was today and yesterday...
tomorrow, there will be this math test, and maybe after school, konak and i will go to gold's gym. he got 5 free member for this week. hhahahah :D
yeah so that was pretty much all i think..
p.s.: i've sent my script to a publisher. thx all for ur supports :D
baii!
so now it's 10.55
i got up at about 8.45, too early for an complete 8-hour recommended sleep. but i know i can't go back to sleep. i had a cup of coffee and an a piece of wheat bread which i only eat 4 bites and i went upstairs to turn on my computer.
i chatted with alain n venytha n wilsen.
WHOA!
what was that?!
just now, the wind blows really hard and it even made the leaves swirl in the air!
and yeah right.....now it's raining with pretty much a going-to-be storm energy. it rains very2 hard, and now i am worry! even with the door closed and the windows shut, cold wind still blow in!
oh, it's my aircon!
lol.
guess im too paranoid.
yeah so yesterday, i chatted with Vic, and he asked something that i realized i never wanted extraordinary to b my boyfriend or even to love me. i just want him to care after all....
i want him to care that i like him. at least, notice. or maybe he noticed it already. but that doesn't make any change. and the most thing i expect, is for him to care for me. i know it's stupid, concerning the situation now, that he really is confuse between to love or not to love this girl. why should i have many boy friends who are in the same condition?!
disappointed because of love?
wanting more but he can't?
i was through those time already.. yes it was hard! i was deaf and blind, too deaf to hear people's advices on me and to blind to realize he had another life already, or maybe he had my place replaced already...
why should love hurts?
ok, it doesn't always hurt. but in vic's case, in alain's case, in jay's case, it all going around the same point! they want to get over the wound, but however painful their wound, it's painfully sweet...
and it was like how i felt..
too coward to let go of him, it's like if i let go of him, i wouldn't be complete, i would be incomplete! i would never be able to stand up like i did. too much to endure.. to hurt.. or whatever it is.
but i know life has to go on, and of course they all know it as much as i know it, but it was hard. i tried to let go of him, thinking like : i know i take the risk now, and the choices would be down to... if i can pass it, then i'm through, if i can't i would be dead!
it's like that.
but even though it's painful, even tho i shed my tears for the hundred times, crying over me, crying over him, crying over my coward heart, i realized, i'm still alive.
not as contented, but i'm alive. that's enough for the start.
and then time will heals.. no, not the time, the world...the whole world! i recall this quote from a page in the book The Alchemist : "when you want something, the world conspires in helping you to achieve it"
and it eventually brought my logic back, it's a long process. a really2 long proces.. i was numb for some dying decades in my feeling.
but slowly, really slowly, i realize how wonderful my life is with all my friends and family, and i learnt to be grateful with all i have. of course i have to be happy with what i had although it's not much. because that's all i have when my heart was broken and unrepairable.
it's just that i've let him go too far, and i can't call him back.
and at that point, i realize the real meaning of life has to go on. cos time won't stop.
i've losing too much chances to change, i've thrown away every opportunity i could get, just because of the thoughts i used to have.
and now i want to have it all! i am thirsty of life!
i'm thirsty to taste the real meaning of life, to hike the mountain of difficulties, to get drown to the deepest bottom of sea, to be meaningful, to be someone, to be anyone, to be known, to be part of world, to be free, to travel, to get thrown by the eastern wind, to get lost in a dessert, to be unconscious, to smile, to laugh, to depend on myself, to not putting my happiness in others, to be independent, to be able to stand up for my self, to be extraordinary, to care for others, to be cared, to love, to be loved, to try so hard to get what i want, to paint the blank canvas, to flip the page of the book, to put the last piece of puzzle, to complete myself, to search for unknown things, to discover the lost me, to be me..
and i am now contented again, not wholefully, but enough to feel again :)
much much love,
tata<3
about today... humm...
today, as planned, we protested against Shawn. how he always teaches us, how uninteresting his subject is, how boring the lesson, and how unfair his scoring.
6 students ditched his class today and the rest, the more moderate ones, stayed in class to have a "discussion" with him instead of rebellion.
at the beginning of the class, Alain, Nadia, and some other friends talked up to him. too bad, i was in the washroom! i was supposed to be one of the speakers! and when i got back, they were talking to Shawn in front of the class where the rest of us stayed in our seats, silent.
i joined their discussion and he promised to talk about it next week or later after the lesson if we still had spare time. and so we still had to do the presentation anyway. luckily, due to the sudden absence of those 6 students, the presentation went shorter and we had 15minutes left before the lesson was over. and so he said he'd be happy to talk about it.
at first, we were silent, but then i started it. i asked him to do the subject more interestingly and the others supported by giving more opinions. he said we have to stay on track with the books, that the books got 18 pages each unit and we only have 3 weeks with once a week meeting to do that. then we continued with another argument by saying Mr. George could do it in a more fun way but we still could understand the main things the book wanted us to. and he put another argument.
then we started to talk about the scoring, i said the score was unfair, he put the standard too high or something. i know exactly my friends are good at English, they never got bad marks in English! and now, he gave us 6,5 for the average of the class and even put 0 for some of the students! and in Alain's case (which i believe happen to not only him) he got a really bad mark for being accused of doing plagiarism although he really did the assignment himself, not from the internet or somewhere else.
too bad, it was recess time already. he left the class and most of the class left too. some of us stayed. including me. we planned to report this to our homeroom teacher and principal and maybe Mr. George. but when the 6 students who ditched class came back, they already talked to the princpal and to our homeroom teacher. the only thing we should do is talk to Mr. George.
fyi, yesterday 11 social 1 already talked to shawn about the same thing and he didn't really pay any attention to it. and now, as the problems getting bigger, i think he would pay more attention. in fact, our homeroom teacher came to our class and asked us to wrote all the scores we got from him so far. and when he saw it he was like "oh my god! i will have to explain to 29 parents in the mid-semester report card day!"
and after the second break, 7 or more students talked to mr george and he said he will continue the discussion tomorrow in the first break. so....looking fwd to it, i guess..
the rest of the day was actually great! it was raining today and i love rain! i love love love it!
and i and merlyn managed to finish the movie reviews and we also done the computer aop.
and i had a good laugh when merlyn asked me innocently what does "fuck" mean. i was like "what?!" then, i said he should asked alain as he's an expert on that. alain explained it all but not the main meaning. so felia helped us, she explained to merlyn that fuck has 2 meanings and merlyn kept asking me what those meanings are.
merlyn: ta, ayolah jelasin, fuck itu apa?
me: aduh mer! pokonya it's a very2 bad word! sana tanya alain!
alain: *explaining*
felia: actually fuck has 2 meanings.
merlyn: what?
alain: aduh mer, tanya miss juliana aja gih! ...............miss! merlyn wants to ask u!
ms. juliana: yes honey?
me and felia and alain laughed.
merlyn: what is the meaning of......fuck?
ms. juliana: WHAT?!
merlyn: what is the meaning of fuck miss?
ms juliana: *expressionless for 2 secs* oh my god dear! that's a very2 bad word! a girl like you should never say that
merlyn: hah?!
alain laughed even more
ms juliana: ok guys, please go back to your class.
merlyn: taaa~ ayolaah, what's the meaning! don't be shy! i won't tell anyone....
me: hahaahahahahahahhahahahahahaha...... everyone knows it already!
and finally on our way back to the class, felia, alain, and me tried so hard to explain it to her without really getting into the dirty words. and she finally understood. then she asked some more about what does it means when someone said "fuck u!" or "fuck off!" or "fuckin heavy!" or things like that. and i explained some more.
luckily, she understood!
YAY!
so, that's my day~
what the hell is wrong with me?
this past week, i've grunted alot! i feel unhappy! i feel angry ...what would i be angry? that's stupid.
this mood fluctuations often happens to me but usually, there's a reason behind it. reason why i'm not happy, reason why i'm angry. but even yesterday, as i chatted with alain, i couldn't figure it out! what did i feel?!
alain and merlyn have the same conclusion: i'm in love
well, i don't think so...
even if it is true..
who?!
who ?!
do i know it when i fall in love?
hey, i have all the rights to know!
does my heart speaks faster than my brain? but who is the guy that stole my heart?
who on earth dare to touch me, even? with my wall build up high, preventing smugglers!
damn 'extraordinary'! i hate you!
ok, i know who merlyn and alain had been thinking of. it's the 'extraordinary' but i don't think so... still not sure.
in fact, he's been a kind of friend to me. i even know who he likes and he told me that. i should have been satisfied with the story, right?
and even so, there's another feeling after satisfied that continue to bother me..
would u say that anger?
...or jealousy?
no, no. i forbid myself to feel it!
damn extraordinary. are you really that extraordinary?
ahh i miss prata :'(
i don't know why. i really miss that prata i ate in Suntec City in one morning with my family when we were in a holiday trip there. i still remember we only ate some snacks and went to Suntec City with our stomach growling. and when we arrived there, it was still morning and some people are eating their breakfasts there while the shops still closed..we got nearer to see the menu and after a while, we got a table and enjoying our prata with curry.
it was the first time fr me to eat prata with the original style. with curry. usually at home, i ate it with sugar.
and after tasting it, i like it!
i've been trying to search for the same prata but i haven't found the same one..
soo, i miss it....
kay then, enough abt prata..
i am writing a new story now, the title and the story are still a supersecret! hahahaha..
one thing fr sure, it's gonna b great! lol (hopefully)
so tomorrow, there'll be this english assignment where we should tell the whole class about our personal obstacle and how we overcome it. damn Shawn! i hate u!
then, maybe tomorrow there'll be a math quiz. and there's another english assignment by ms. juliana where we should bring an article about conventional or alternative medication.
and tomorrow (again) me and merlyn will redo our poster since we were doing it halfheartedly and now it's a mess.
kay then...
i think i'll continue with the new story
hehe...
see ya!
ahh i'm totally exhausted nowww!
it's 12.29 am and i just got home and washed my face before putting on my PJ..
so today started with school (as always)
i did my AJP test and i think i could get good mark :D
and the next lesson iss choirr!! i LOVE singing so there's no regret in me although the teacher is quite strict. but somehow, today she's very nice and laughed a lot.
and then there was this macro economics subject which i spent most of my time chatting with my friends. and it was followed by counseling and then the last, isss DANCE! hahahaha
i love dancing since i was a kindergarten little girl. so i guess i just can't stop loving it. lol
ok then..
so today, i accompanied merlyn to meet her boyfriend, Hendry who came with Eric. they're from DH Daan Mogot and they were still wearing their uniforms. so it'd be quite hard for them to just enter the school cos the guards will ask them lotsa questions. so we just met through the small gate that's only opened at the end of school time and although we talked like idiots with gate between us, i still found Merlyn smiling and she seemed so happy. and yeah, so end of story..
then after the 2nd break was over, i went to the dance room. and something happened today with my seniors but i'm just too tired to typed it here. and so i, rena, and jeep danced a bit. evelyn, catherne, and desi were doing their IPA project so they couldn't come to dance.
finally, it's time to go home!
well, not for me...
i met desi in front of the biology lab and walked her to the TU to take her cell phone, then we walked to "pintu kecil" and rode my car to my house. there, we only rest for like 5 mins and then we were off to mandarin course.
i was so tired that if i close my eyes a bit, i will drift into a deep sleep. and it almost happened when we were supposed to read aloud the text and we took turns to do that. and while my friends were reading it aloud, i almost fell asleep!
just when i thought i could really rest, Cumie called me and asked me to go with her to SMS. i knew that tonight we'd go to SMS after english course but i had no idea that we had to go to SMS previously to buy the movie tickets. and so, after the mandarin course was over, i and desi walked back to my house. after chatted with desi for a while, cumie arrived at my house and so i had to take a shower and get ready to go to SMS.
cumie and I dropped desi in front of her cluster and then we drove to SMS. we bought the tickets for The Mist and i asked for some informations too in Gold's Gym since i had been interested in their HipHop class.
it was 7.30 PM when we drove back to our english course that was suppose to start at 7.00 PM. okay, so we were late but that was no big problems.
we had quite a laugh there with raphael and reza around..
then, i and cumie picked andree and alain up. then off we go to SMS.....
we watched the Mist and went back home...
and here i am, totally exhausted and sleepy...
i think it's better for me to sleep now before i get cold...
i <3 Fridayy
i'm sooo addicted to the song just breath- siraric gravity. and i don't know why!
it somehow take me to other place, where there's no problem, no HW, no test, no tomorrow. it's just blank. and i'm not supposed to feel anything except emptiness and relax..
and now, as i listen to that song, i want to tell you what had happened today.
so today started as Merlyn brought me her cute hair pin with a puffy hat on the pin so when i wore it, it looks like i'm wearing a small hat on the left side of my head and i think it's really cute!
of all the cuteness the thing possess, merlyn and i somehow ruin it. we ruined it by wearing it together, tie our hair in the opposite direction and so as we walk to the canteen and corridors, people looked at us strangely cos we look like supercrazy. we wear this small hats, me on left and merlyn on right and i tied my hair on my left, merlyn on her right..
as we passed the way to gymnasium, a teacher, kindergarten teacher looked at us incredulously and said, "kamu pake apa itu? ya ampun! kiri kanan lagi! ga ada yg d tengah!" and then we laughed..
when we passed canteen, carla shouted at us, "ih lucu bgt kembaran!" and everyone turns to see us. i want to sink into the earth at that time. and to complete our funny suffers, we met Bu Aster, the biology teacher of 11 and 12 graders.
we met her when the recess time almost over and so we quickly walked to our class. and there she is, on the top of the stairs looking at us as if we're aliens. and when we passed her, she hold my hand and said in a concern voice, "kamu kenapa?"
me: "hah kenapa bu?"
bu aster: "ya ampun nak, kamu kenapa?!", still holding my hand and looking back and forth from my face to merlyn's as if we had done some kind of a sin by wearing those hair pins.
me: "hah? ga papa kok bu!"
bu aster: touch her hand to the pin, still looked confuse.
and then i and merlyn walked to our class, laughing at what had happened...
and the last 2 periods was math.
oh i HATE math. not that i hate the subject. i think it's more of the teachers and the subject was quite boring if the teacher weren't good.
and so, as always, herman and shinta walked into the classroom and taught us math.
the only thing different was that konak found a new way to do the questions and although we haven't learned that, we could do it with his formula!
it was a whole different thing if we could do something without the help of teachers, you know...
and soooooo
that was today...
tomorrow i got an accounting test about AJP.
well then, i hope i'll get enough sleep today...
ciao!
it's 16.17 p.m. and I'm full yet exhausted. i wasn't eating properly today. I had wheat bread as breakfast with plain water as the drink. and i had 2 egg tarts as my lunch and my brunch and so by the time we finally go home which is, 15.30 p.m., i was starving. but it's nothing compared to my exhaustion. i don't know why today i got tired easily. i can't concentrate, maybe it's because i slept late last night, forcing myself to finish reading "Putri Cina" but however, i didn't make it.
so today, i did my history test which was about Buddhism and Hinduism. and i was sleepy right away after i've done with my test. then there was math, which i spent more of the time talking and joking around, and there was this project time, where me and Alain finished our Chapter 1. FYI, my project is about "The relation between Chinese migration and their nationalism" it sounds quite heavy, you know. but the point i'm doing it is because i want to get to LIPI. i don't really know what it stands for, the main thing is, this LIPI thing is an event which is held every year. it's a competition between school in social subject. and the winners often get scholarships and other prizes.
for me, it's not for the prize. it's just that I want to show how Chinese have been treated unfairly in this country and since i'm a chinese-born girl, i also feel the unfair treatments. besides, i love debating, spilling my idea, and competing...
and this lunchtime, all the people who got the callback for another audition came back to the Little Theatre. i didn't get the callback but it didn't matter alot to me, since i'm eager to be a backstage for costume and make-up. but Merlyn got the callback and many other people came too although they didn't get the callback. and i saw others performing again today. and finally, it's been a final decision that Chrisvania will be Kathy and Carla will be Princess Margaritha. and that's all for the audition. tomorrow, Ms B will give the parts for each person
for tomorrow,there's this math HW which i won't do. and for the rest of my day, i'm completely free except for an english course this evening
... and i might continue writing :)
i stopped writing for quite a while. around 2 months i think and i miss it very very much!
okay then.....
hav a nice day everyone!
xoxoxoxo,
Agita
if between death we finally see
how life turn us to be
a drama on a deserted stage
or a friend without lies
i saw this man
in the dusk scent with rainbows painted on hand
dance
dance through the night
why should we be
a lover whose life undone
with so much mysteries between the tainted wind
and as the sun rose the next day
why aren't we dead yet?
isn't that the grasses been too high to walk through?
and the ocean too wide to crossed
isn't that the sky been the mute painter
who sweep its brushes through our time?
