back to reality

Monday.... oh monday..
here it comes.. and suddenly it's monday all over againn...
can't believe holiday went sooo faasstt! i want to redo it all again!

so.. the past 10 days i had spent in my cousin's house was quite wonderful. it's like, although my mom and dad were out to china, i could stay there, went to malls, woke up later than usual, yawning and tossing in bed until it's 11 a.m. and went downstairs to watch gossip girl together. hahaha.. feels like holiday..

then i would sip my daily intake of caffeine, bit my breakfast wholeheartedly in the not-so-silent atmosphere with my little cousins shouting, quarreling, etc etc upstairs.

i never slept before the clock turned at least midnight and i wouldn't wake up if the clock hadn't passed 10 in the afternoon (exception for thursday since i had a dance practice which required me to wake up at 7! and i severely couldn't sleep!)

and now..
suddenly...
BACK TO REALITY!

today i had a BI block test.. next two days is MATH block test! and on the same day have to attend a technical meeting in trisakti.. prepare prepare prepare... saturday gonna be the competition day... missing dance practice... and study study study... agama block test on the 8th.... practice practice practice... dance audition.....more studiesssss... IELTS!



i thought i'm the spontaneous kind of person with no agenda no schedule no exact plan..

but it turned out that i'm pretty suck in becoming that kind of person. it's true that i have no agenda, but my brain is like containing all the things i have to get done and it will turn on the alarm if i dare to forget even one of it.. and strangely the brain only reminds me of something i like or i used to be excited of,, never the things i hate or lazy to do..



humpph.. at least today i get to meet my friends again.. one and only thing i like about today..


..but i secretly hope that the past 10 days wasn't just a dream. there are some parts i prefer to stay real...



list of things i crave right now:
> bread with strawberry jam
> the DVD of The Proposal
> coffee latte
> rain


armed with those 4 things, i would be more than happy :)

Me?I’m scared of everything.
I’m scared of what I saw, I’m scared of what I did, of who I am,
and most of all I’m scared of walking out of this room
and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you.

—	Dirty Dancing