i don't want to wish for anything. just to be here. here is where i belong. no, not really. i belong in other place. other brighter place full of dreams, achievements, hopes, and high expectations. i imagine myself as a creature, look like human, talk like human, walk like human, exactly like human but i have a pair of wings, a pair of real dark loving freedom kind of wings. those wings would take me away, far far away you can never find me again. those wings would separates you and me. those wings would leave marks on you with your wounded body. red, black, blue, brushing all over your pain. you can never see me or even hear or even picture me again. I would fly across the oceans, mountains, cities, countries, lands, night and day. i would fly around the universe of unpredictability, beyond your glimpse of warm eyes. I would never wish for more. I would soar higher and higher up through the so-called 7 layers of heaven and hell. I would live and walk and talk and feel and hear and touch and kiss in different ways. totally different ways. you would never recognize me. never. and I would be there, going on with my life of which you're not even in the picture. I might sip my daily coffee and do my daily crops, i might hear some other song after another, ride another plane after another, making uncountable calls to people i don't want to be connected to. i might not remember you. you might have forgotten about me.. so let's cheers to present time. to now. to the crawling time. to the second we both realize something we can never put down..