longing for freedom

so here I am.
sitting in front of my computer, summoning myself with all my might to go to bed and sleep but fail...
i cannot sleep although my body begs me to. my brain's too full with all the things i have to do tomorrow. it's not that I have millions things to do, it's not. all i need to worry tomorrow is only dance performance for the closing ceremony of Euphoria.

but then other little things start to creep through my mind, nagging me on and on about things I shouldn't think about. bits of which I should have forgotten and put them at the back of my head. what am i worried about? life is too good to be worried about. life is too generous. it keeps changing from time to time in a matter of seconds to keep you away from boring bits, it keeps evolving and turning into other things you might want to recall in one fine day in a misty morning. but lately, all i want is just to live usually, which is the hardest thing i can get these days.

after a month of crazy dance practice, now it's going to come to an end. the performance. the only way we can prove to ourselves that those time money and energy spent aren't for nothing. then in a blink of an eye, Euphoria will come to its final day. and we're supposed to get back to our studies. but our studies have also caught up with us. with all the projects, presentations, papers, and among all of them, there stand proudly..INESPO. and ahead of that.. university applications.

when was the last time i went to malls? watch movies? or even just having simple chats and exciting plans with my besties? i even can't remember! and i have my schedule planned 3 weeks ahead of me. fml.

to add more stress, my mom have booked my plane ticket for next year!
wonderful.


I need my share of hot chocolate, pancakes, and road trip to freedom..