i miss PIRN so badly

huah akhirnya kembali lagi di rumah setelah seminggu d Jogja sampe ngga bisa ngmg bahasa indo jakarta sama sekali! hahahahaha!

no word can describe what i experienced deh d sana. smwanya bener2 worth it. baru kali ini seumur hidup g bener2 merasakan manfaat g belajar kalo mau ulangan, nanya2 dan berusaha merhatiin pelajaran walopun ngantuk n bosen setengah mati, kerjain tugas susa payah, kerjain laporan proyek, bikin kuisioner susah payah. manfaat yang nggak sekedar di pilih ikut lomba2, tapi manfaat ikutan sesuatu yang nggak smwa orang bisa ikut dan bener2 ngajarin banyak hal. not only about winning and losing.

tp baru kali ini beneran g rasain, g dapet 1 amazing experience d PIRN (perkemahan ilmiah remaja nasional) LIPI, ketemu orang2 dr sluruh indo, beda etnis, budaya, bahasa dari 29 provinsi, and yet.... kita semua bisa nyambung.

dan smwanya ga akan g dapetin kalo ngga pernah ngebuktiin kalo g pantes dapetin itu semua d sekolah. selama ini g lomba2, ikut ini itu, jalan2 ke berbagai tempat, ga perna ada yg se worth it ini..


singkat cerita, g bertemu dengan these wonderful people. dan kita smwa d taro d satu tempat, melakukan hal yg sama 1 minggu kcuali beda jurusan. g masuk ips, ada yg ipa n ada juga yang teknik. terus bikin kelompok, bukannya dipilihin, justru kita harus milih sendiri. baru kali ini g suru bkin kelompok sendiri dan kebingungan hrus sama siapa. (ga bole sm merlyn since kt 1 sekola). dan akhirnya g lgsg nengok k blkg.. g lgsg jdinya sekelompok sama anak2 ini, sederetan duduk di belakang g..

namanya: gangga, andri, azhar, fefy, n riri. trus ada anak yang tadi disebelah g, bru kenalan, dy jg minta sekelompok jdinya kita 1 kelompok jg. namanya Vania..

besokannya kt diskusi topik n lokasi penelitian, datanglah 1 anak lgi yg sempet d perebutin sama kelompok laen dan g bengong2 liatin tuh anak. namanya ikhsan brilianto. smwa orang tau dy, kok g ga tau?? akirnya d critain bru tau deh hehehe

abs itu kita ber 8 bikin nama kelompok. namanya De'pasto. singkatan dari Delapan pasti oke. wakakakaka. kita grup 8.
anggotanya:
-Ririe Kusumasari dari Jogja, asli'e Bali
-Agita Wijaya dari Banten
-Andri dari Bangka Belitung
-Azhar Nasih dari Jogja
-Ikhsan Brilianto dari Jogja
-Fefy Yunitasari dari Palembang
-Gangga Subroto dari Tuban, Jatim
-Vania Intar dari Surabaya








trs kita bkin penelitian d malioboro tentang pedagang2 distro n kaki lima seharian penuh muter2 malioboro wawancara orang2, ada yang baik, ada yang bru kita ngmg aja udah pergi, ada yang ga bersedia diwawancara, wah macem2 deh. desek2an panas2an.

besokannya kita ngolah laporan. huaaah! mengggilaaaa! laporan penelitian n presentasi power point yg byasanya bikin d sekolah selama setaun skrg suru bkin dalam 1 malem!!

jadi lah kita ber 8 begadang, sehari semalem. tidur bangun ganti2an demi kerjain laporan. kita stay di 1 ruangan dari jam 8 pagi sampe 8 pagi besokannya.. tidur pun d ruangan itu, kursi d dempet2in. huaah!

g sempet tidur jem 2 n bangun jem 4. abs it tidur lg, bgun jem 6. langsung mandi n sarapan..
trus bkin presentasi, santai2, tidur lg sejem, abs itu langsung latian presentasi..

sorenya kita presentasi....

trs ada acara2 fieldtrip bareng2, jalan2 k ambarrukmo plaza, naek taksi ber 8, naek transjogja, makan bareng, kemana2 bareng. omg omg.. i miss them so much now...

i miss them badly. real badly.

and it doesnt really matter that we didn't won. it doesn't matter that we were on the third place. we miss each other severely..

sampe pas malem trakhir kita smwa tulis2an pesan2, vania udah nangis2. trus ada confession dari seseorang (hihi), abis itu besok paginya jam 5.30 andri pulang, trs gangga juga. abs itu g. g tadinya nggak nangis sampe gimana2 banget, tapi bgitu giliran g yang pulang, smwanya yang tersisa pelukan dan akhirnya g juga nangis..

y ampun..
bener2 kangen..







[when i recall my memory, i laugh at an image of myself, desperately praying to God. whispering wholeheartedly "God, I've sacrificed a HUGE event of my life for LIPI, please, please God, make it worth it...."

and He smiles from above..]

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I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch TV these days. Well, only True Blood and Entourage on Sunday.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart. I like to believe so.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way i look. To an extent.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends. I have my group; the less the better.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. Certain people.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. When I’m home for the day.
I love to shop. Depends.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I don’t hold grudges.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. I don’t wear makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist. Photography is an art.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie. Natural rush after runnin’.

"Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you, and be okay with it."- unknown

Don't wish for anything you don't really mean to. in case it really do come true..

something caught my eye while reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept...here's the sentence..

no one can lie, no one can hide anything, when he looks directly into someone's eyes. and any woman with the least bit of sensitivity can read the eyes of a man in love.[....] I had never dreamed that after all these years he would still remember [...] But that was so many years ago-it was another life, a life whose innocence had opened my heart to all that was good.


well, i can't bring my eyes to see those that urge me to say my feelings. the feelings which i just want to run away, saying 'i don't think i like u, sorry!' but there's a little piece in your brilliant eyes that creates another new calmer voice in my head, saying

'why don't you try? he is all about what you used to write in your "i WON'T take risk for anyone else anymore, ever! except the one that ticks all these points below.." list, isn't he? so what if he's someone you know? you expect to find a perfect-looking stranger and fall in a crazy love together, run away somewhere beautiful and never coming back? ha ha ha. very funny. enough with strangers. now, take it or leave it?'

my heart rebels against it. "but there isn't such thing. that is just a stupid insignificant list, God won't even know i write this"




-- but you know what..
God knows.
He listens.
He watches all this time..
all the pretentious laughter, forced smile, cries, tears, disappointments..He knows it all.
so my message here: Don't wish for anything you don't really mean to. in case it really do come true..

what to write? i don't have anything to tell other than parties, trips, holidays, and upcoming plans.

well, let's talk a bit about that..

in 2 days i'm leaving for Jogja to join LIPI's event. a kind of camp help by an educational organization to make a social research. and i still have no idea what that is about..

tomorrow i'm gonna meet my EO for my bday party, get my 3x4 pictures taken, pack my suitcases, and get ready for my 5 a.m. flight.

then i'm gonna spent a week there, missing everyone, hope get something useful and valuable there. blah blah blah and get back home

wait til my sister return from canada

and we'll take it from there, see how things will go..



and the days behind...

yesterday was ivy's birthday party at Ritz Carlton and it was a blast. i think everyone had a good time there, good laugh, take pics, etc etc, went back home, had a really nice hot shower, read novel, and sleep.

the days before was even more usual. went to cinema, eat sushi, soursally, hanamasa, listening to some good music, went shopping, looking at photographs online, wanting SLR camera, read By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, have this dream to be a movie reviewer and earn enough money to buy an SLR camera, staying up late, take time in breakfast, no hurries, meeting people, laughing out loud, tell stories, gaping in shock, texting and texting and texting, saying hi, bye, basic days. the days you would say "better than doing nothing at home", like the one in mla (my life is average)

and today, due to my good mood, i made white angel brownies and surprisingly, it's still good!^^

spending my time...

i'm such a weirdo

inspired by a writing of Yoko Ono, i decided to make a list of things why i think I'm such a weirdo...

1. i think a have several different personalities, it can change depending on my mood and situation. like when there's a writing or speaking test, i wrote a lot then when i read it again, i was like taken aback, "is this my writing? how could i locate those forgotten words in my mind?"

2. i have too many dreams i can't decide which to go first. i know i have always been a dreamer, well most of my friends do, growing up among those Disney films and stories, but i have too many of them it makes me confuse.

3. I very seldom change my shoes. i always use the same black flats since a year ago and i wear it everywhere. i mean it, EVERYWHERE! to parties, to gatherings, to church, to grandma's house, to lunches, dinners, brunches, to walk around town, to go abroad, go out of town, to saloon, bookstores, everywhere!

4. i love orange colour

5. i like to lie on the cold floor when it's raining outside and close my eyes, i like to go out of my house and look up to the sky when there are lots of stars, i like to close my eyes and spin on my chair with soothing music playing.

6. i don't have a celeb crush

7. i don't want to have kids (for now. i mean, have you ever really given it a thought?)

8. i can sit for hours just goggling at those artistic photographs

9. i don't know what i feel, even asking myself won't do any good. thats why it's hard to make decisions.

10. i have this kind of "sudden needs" that comes up out of nowhere and bombarded me, saying that i really need to do that. spontaneously. unplannedly.

11. i share secrets with random people.i mean, really random that you will never imagine who they are.

12. it's hard for me to remember ways and directions. but i remember places and the surroundings easily. like i know that the cinema is on the last floor and on the right side there's restaurant A, on the left is B shop and inside we can find ticket booth on the left and refreshments on the right. but i don't know how to get there...


etc etc.

i forget.

so tomorrow is LAZY DAY
i wish i really can hibernate, being lazy all day, with nothing to think about, nothing to be fulfilled, just let me take a rest.....

should i sleep now? it's 7.46 pm.
if i sleep now, i will get up really late at night with nothing to do
but I'm sleepy...
but if i sleep now, i won't be able to sleep until morning. and i will end up get sick.
but I'm sleepy..
oh crap, i will just get to bed now.
tomorrow's holiday. so who cares :)

padang padang padang

aaa finally im home! so yea, last 3 days i went to Padang, the capital city of west sumatra. well, to shorten up the story, i really love padang! the scenes along the road, the beautiful river, hills, valleys, i just can't get enough of em!

i went with my dad, dad's friend, and dad's assistant. no girl involved other than me. and it was really fun and challenging to catch up with boys energy and their "it's ok" attitude. for example, we stopped somewhere in the mountain just to ate durians. it was almost 9 p.m., my mum wouldn't let us. we even got into Japanese Cave and heard all the histories and legends and mysteries which i and my dad bet, mum wouldn't let us in..

another example, i was really tired on the 2nd day after we went to 7 places which costed us 14 hours trip and they still can watch TV, smoking, even eating popmie!

well, i went straight to bed aftr taking shower, my dad said i slept fitfully, needless to say.

the best parts of the trip for me are parts where we just go along without thinking, having no directions, asking padang people along the way and found out that human beings are such nice living things!

some of them talked in padang accent, it was really thick that i couldn't get any word right. some of them are old, some are young, but they showed the ways! i think this is why i love traveling so much, to find good things that still exist in the world.

they even didn't really undertand what we said, especially when we asked "approximately, how many kilometers?" or "how far?" they certainly can't predict well. we asked A, she said it's approximately 1/2 hour, and the next person we asked said it'd be an hour.. so we surely couldn't trust ther estimation of time.

but some people are too nice, old people even got up from their seats just to show us the way, a man who owns a little padang restaurant gave us all the information to airport on the last day, even kids who were playing in the field showed us the way and it was right..we even asked motorcyclist during the traffic, we asked man walking, we asked soooo many people along the way. i think it could sums up to 30 people..

but they all pointed the right way, they gave the informations they know, they put efforts just to tell us the intersections, they really want to help! and i feel grateful for that.

and the other part i love is that we really travel! we got to know the culture, the history, we ate in sidewalk and small restaurants, we met teachers and their students on the way to Lembah Harau and met them again there. we ate the food they cook, we didn't complained altho the food aren't as good as in the town , we enjoyed the trip so much!

and that, my friend, is the essence of travelling i think missing from my society.

babysitting day

never thought i'd like kids XD


jadi hari ini kita semua dapet tugas membimbing anak2 kelas 1 sd dan kebetulan gw dapet kelas 1B. pertama2 kita jalan ke kelas mereka trs suru mereka bkin lingkaran d lapangan. abs itu kt maen kucing tikus untuk mencairkan suasana. abs itu baru pembagian kakak-kakak pembimbing.

anak g hari ini bernama Anasthasya Rebecca n Kevin Riady
g uda agak aware sama Kevin since alain n tanjung bilang anak yang namanya Kevin itu biasanya nakal! tp pas g liat anaknya, jaaahhh.... tampang innocent, botak2, putih, g langsung mikir 'ah gmpg deh ini mah!'

yg jdi masala justru c Anasthasya! dy tuh superhiperaktif! pas lg maen kucing tikus dy dengan smangat nawarin diri jd kucing. abs itu dy tuh somehow kaenya gaul bgt. dy kenal anak2 kelas 4 n 5 sd. sepanjang jalan dy dadah2 trus ke anak2. trs dy maen kitik2an, lari2an, kejer2an sama smwa orang, termasuk g, guru2, dan anak2 laen. tp ini anak pinter bgt. ud gt cakepp XD

me, alain, thasya

ok.. jadi tugas kita adalah membimbing dan jagain mereka selama mereka bkin bentuk2 dari tanah liat gituh.. smwanya berjalan mulus awal2nya. g kasi tau mereka temanya BUMI.
thasya mo bkin kupu2, dan kevin mo bkin t-rex which of course g ga bolehin. trs akhir2nya bikin2 gitu, kita juga bantu2in..
sampe agak lamaan, thasya pnya ud mule ada bentuk2nya, ada bunga lah, orang lah. nah c kevin nih ga jelas bkin apaan. ancur2an, abstrak gitu.
trs g tanyain "km bkin ap itu??" trs dy kasi benda-tak-berbentuk itu ke g sambil blg "ini tanah longsor"
astaga.
g lgsg blg "ga boleh bkin tanah longsor!" mskipun dlm hati g benerin dy juga c. kan tanah longsor masih masuk tema Bumi.

Kevin n me

ckckckc.. udah gt semakin siang semakin disaster, tepatnya setelah mereka bole cuci tangan. g temenin thasya cuci tangan, dan pas g balik kevin ud ilang.

nyari2in muter2 lapangan sampe ke kelas2 2,3,4 SD. alain sampe pake TOA nyariin c kevin. meanwhile, thasya ud siap makan, ud bawa2 botol mnum n kotak makan jd dy g suruh makan aj ma ank2 laen. abs itu g cari2 kevin lg. setelah muter2 berkali2 ga ketemu2 akirnya g pasrah dan balik ke tempat ank2 1B lagi makan bekel. dan ternyata kevin ada d situ juga!

groar.

akirnya g ma merlyn k kantin bntr bli mkanan abs it blik lg. dan ternyata mereka smwa ud mencar2 lari2an karena jem istirahat. jd kt biarinin aj.

tp d lliat2 tuh kok ank2 kelas laen ga ad yg sebrutal anak2 kelas g yah? anak2 1c adem ayem nempel ma kakak2 masing2, trs klo ngga ya maen2 ma kakak2nya. lah ini anak kelas g? lari2an, kejer2an, ga pduli ce co, dan mreka nyebar! akirnya jem istirahat selese, kt smwa d tugasin ngumpulin ank2 lg. dan mestinya abs ini anak2 IPA ambil alih games2. tp entah gmn caranya kelas 1A dan 1B ga ad d list! huaiaaahh!!


akirnya kt bener2 ga tau mo ngpn, buntu. dan sincan akirnya joget2, ngajarin mereka nyanyi lupa2 ingat pake gaya, abs itu lari2an, matrix2an ke lapangan. sampe lapangan pertamanya mereka masi dalam bentuk barisan. tp setelah gambreng mo maen petak jongkok, hancur barisannya.

smwa langsung lari2an, masuk ke area outbond, mo manjat wall climbing, masuk2 ke lap tennis, sampe kabur k lapangan atletik! astaganaga tuhaann.. kt smwa kejer2an ma mereka sampe konak aj ga sabar n anaknya d gendong, d pelok, d pegangin, d gotong rame2. dan yang paling2 dr smwanya, boss dr smwa kriminalitas kelas 1B, adalah seorang anak kecil yang termasuk berbadan kecil mukanya kae sincan, namanya Joseph!

joseph yg brutal

omg.. tu anak bener2 dahh! tangannya sampe diiket ma konak trs dy lari k lap atletik mnta iketanny d bukain ma ank smp! huaaaaah!

ud gt mereka kejar2 kodok, menganiaya kodok, sampe ujung2nya menganiaya temen sendiri. yaitu seorang anak cewe yang mulutnya berdarah kena tendangan temenny yang diduga adalah Ray.

udah gt entah gmn caranya smwa anak mnta d gendong, adit, konak, alain, smwa gendong2 anak2. bahkan felia! ud gt kt kumpulin anak2nya, dan foto bersama dengan perjuangan stgh mampus pegangin ank masing2..




bgitulah garis besarnya.

abs it kt balikin mereka ke kelas mereka dan kita bye2 ma mereka. c thasya yg sangatamat brutal itu ga rela jg kt pergi, dy sampe ke depan kelas, toss2an ma g, trs g kiss bye, br deh g pergi..



aaa jd kangen lg ma mereka~

he listened to me. he actually listened, and asked questions, and even made me a cup of tea. i was there for over an hour. he didn't tell me what he thought or what he was going to do. he didn't even say whether he believed me or not. but the fact that he took me seriously made all the difference~
(The Undomestic Goddess- Sophie Kinsella)

I don't want to survive, I want to live!

To fly across the ocean, i need an airplane. I don't have one. so why can't i just spread my wings and fly? I may not be a good pilot, but i can navigate well. Look! there's a rich island there! what they call that? Europe? oh, not Africa? it's rich, too. no, it's Europe, you say.

Imagine drenching myself in the salty fresh water of the Mediterranean Sea and creating those foot prints on the glinting beach sand. we would switched to the busy sidewalk in Paris, slurping comforting drips of coffee while watching people make love, laughing, swaying, spending their fortunes for a posh glass of wine.then we would escape to a small unregistered village near the river and fields





I would love to swim in the river and catch fishes there! Then roast them in the engaging warmth of bonfire with marshmallows and a guitar. I could sing some croaky tunes for you, I hope you don’t mind. And when the sun rises the next day, we would find ourselves lying on the ground in a field of fragrant flowers and refreshing dew. What are we gonna do today? You ask. I'd reply I don’t know, Honey. We’re simply fulfilling our thirsty ego of tasting and grabbing our long-lost freedom.


Walking past those pretty little houses with old people watching us, smiling. don’t worry, they will tell us where to take the last coach back to town. Then we would take the train.

To where? I don’t know. You don’t care, either. we would go and stop, we would fly and land, we would take trains, buses, airplanes, helicopters, horse carriage, coach, goods truck, air balloon, anything...











until we run out of breath and find a lovely place for me to rest my head upon your shoulder.

This might be the definition of life for me. Living out of the assurance of our mere existences. What a perfect bliss…..

♥♥♥